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Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
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9:38 pm - Paint update:
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Um... my front room looks like a little girl's bedroom. :D
The "peachy confection" is less beige and more pink next to the "twilight purple."
He's gonna kill me. (not really, but I may have to go buy some white paint.....)
current mood:  cheerful
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| Sunday, May 3rd, 2009
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8:53 pm - I'm an aunt!!
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Yup. Doin' my best to live up to the stereotypical crazy fun aunt!
My nephew was born on friday, and he's so adorable, in that itty-bitty-Winston-Churchill kinda way all babies look.
I wasn't there friday, but got to visit on saturday and see the pics. There was one of Breckin all red faced and crying, and he looked like a tiny, angry alien.
Yay!
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| Monday, April 13th, 2009
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7:12 am - Writer's Block: Gamer's Choice
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TETRISTETRISTETRISTETRISTETRISTETRISTETRIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I play tetris like it's my job.)
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| Thursday, February 5th, 2009
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9:16 am - Writer's Block: Seven
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I'm sure someone has already said this already, but it's worth saying again:
To quote the words of Mal on Serenity, "Aw, hell... I'm a fan of all seven."
But for the most part, definitely lust, though I don't consider it a sin.
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| Thursday, January 29th, 2009
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5:38 pm - Attention EVERYONE!!
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I'm moving to Morton, about to get a job, and REALLY need a subleaser.
If ANYONE y'all know knows of ANYONE who needs a place to stay, PLEASE have them call me!!!
Travis and Chris are cool folks, as most of y'all know, I just REALLY want to be somewhere other than Bloomington in general and with Adam in particular.
HALP!!!
Thanks!
current mood:  distressed
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| Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
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11:48 am - Irrelevant Post About Fishies, then Some Other Stuff.
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Sooooo... Adam has a fish tank. It sat all empty and dirty and icky for, well, the entire time he's lived in Illinois. Which is about 2 and a half years. He's wanted to get it cleaned out an running for awhile, so that was our weekend project. Yes, our weekend project. I helped him empty the old junk out of the bottom of it, he scrubbed it out really well, then it was off to the walmart for fishy supplies. He got a filter, heater, gravel, air pump, and 25 gallons of bottled water. Sunday, we adopted fish. So. Not only do I have three cats at my parents house, a cat at my house, a dog that goes with me, Adam's three cats and dog, but now we have three fish. A male guppy, a female guppy, and a scum sucker that sticks to the side of the tank. They're still alive, so I think we did it right. He wanted to fill the 25 gallon tank with water out of the tap, through the Brita filter, but I told him that the fishies would prolly die. Morton has tons of lime in the water. Also, the Brita filter sucks and takes forever to fill a gallon. Meh. In a couple of weeks we're gonna try out some more fish. I want to get an angel fish. I sorta wanted to do the saltwater tank thing, but it's way too damned expensive and time consuming. I just wanted to stage a live-action version of Finding Nemo. Is that so wrong?!
In other news: No job yet. No subleaser yet. Lines on both, but I'm still waiting...
In other, other news: I love my Adam more every day. And he loves me back, and not only for the cooking and copious amounts of sexy sexings.
current mood:  bouncy
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| Thursday, December 25th, 2008
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10:56 pm - Attn: Jay!
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Whilst on vacation in Utah, I saw a phenomenon that perhaps only you and I can fully appreciate.
In the windows of a few different buildings at The Canyons, like the restaurants, the board/ski waxing place, etc. I saw what are affectionately known as "boot plants."
Yes, it is true. There on the windowsill, in old ski boots, were some philodendrons.
I took a picture of one, so as to have proof, but I'm technologically challenged and cannot send a text with pictures.
:D
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| Friday, December 19th, 2008
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8:11 am - Snowboarding!!!
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I'm in Utah, y'all!!
Snowboarding today through Sunday, hanging out with my love, my cousins, and a few friends.
So jazzed!!!
current mood: bouncy
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| Monday, September 22nd, 2008
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7:47 am - MMM Equinox!
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I <3 Fall!
I <3 Adam!
I <3 Life right now!
I am a happy panda. And now I must go to work.
current mood: ecstatic
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| Thursday, July 24th, 2008
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9:06 pm - Stolen from Tif...
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Your results:
You are Poison Ivy
| Poison Ivy |
| 74% |
| Catwoman |
| 60% |
| Mystique |
| 53% |
| Juggernaut |
| 53% |
| Apocalypse |
| 47% |
| Dr. Doom |
| 44% |
| Mr. Freeze |
| 43% |
| Magneto |
| 42% |
| Dark Phoenix |
| 41% |
| Venom |
| 37% |
| Kingpin |
| 37% |
| Lex Luthor |
| 36% |
| The Joker |
| 31% |
| Riddler |
| 28% |
| Green Goblin |
| 13% |
| Two-Face |
| 1% |
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You would go to almost any length for the protection of the environment including manipulation and elimination.
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Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
Also: My butt is sunburned. Boo.
current mood: full
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9:40 am - Maaaan, I love this bed...
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For real, one of the best parts of coming home is sleeping in my awesome bed.
Other than that, the swimming, sunbathing, and seeing my fuzzy kids is pretty damn cool, too!
Didn't really feel like staying in Normal last night, so I took a shower after work, packed up the laundry, and drove home. Talked to Adam most of the way home, which was nice. We can have phone conversations with minimal strange silences. That's new for me.
I'll be here all of today and stay tonight, then drive back down to Bloomington tomorrow morning for work. I'll pry be bringing Jade down with me so I can give her a proper bath in the big fancy tub at the clinic. I need to find a kennel for her to sleep in. She's never really had one, but likes the travel kennel when she stays in the garage so much that I think she'd respond well to being crated. Not locked in, mind you, just to sleep in. I think she feels more secure with a little lair.
Friday night is unofficial sushi night, so anyone who wants to go, come to Orient Gourmet at 7:30. Or call me, or whatever. Adam is coming, so that's cool. We're probably gonna be hanging out at my new place for a little bit. I'm excited!
As to the moving: We're technically not allowed to live there till next weekend, but we'll see how it goes. If most of my stuff is there, and we have keys, there's no reason to stay at the apartment. Also: the house is so much closer to work that I'd be saving a lot in gas just staying there.
Oy. Feeling talkative this morning. But I have to pee and I'm hungry, so I'm gonna stop.
Laters!
Amy
current mood:  awake
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| Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
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1:15 pm - Tif's public post, reposted here for those who've taken her off of their friends list...
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I love Tif, and find it incredible and important that she made this public post. If you've un-friended her due to her spiteful-sounding posts about Craig, please read this. The whole thing. Then think again.
Thank you.
I've noticed that I'm losing old friends because (I think) of the more hateful posts about Craig I have been writing on LJ. I've been told that I'm over reacting, exagerating, making too much of a small thing. I've also been told that I couldn't be sympathized with if I didn't explain what exactly happened. It's finally time to get things completely out in the open. You all need to know what happened to me with regards to Craig. Maybe, if everyone knows, then he won't be able to do to you what he inflicted on me for over 2 years.
For a good deal of Craig's and my relationship, he was a pretty good guy. We did have a lot in common with regard to music, movie taste, etc. I was intrigued by his army stories. He was a person who lived outside the sheltered life I had lived for 17 years.
However, everything really changed when he moved to Normal. When we were physically together, things took a turn for the worse. I was exposed to his temper tantrums, his entitlement attitudes, his complete and utter disrespect for authority (including my parents, which made things very tense around my house.)
I've been told that people have been saying things like, "Tif's just over reacting. Craig didn't like, touch her or anything." I'm here to tell you that that statement couldn't be farther from the truth.
On day on the quad, I was confused and turned around when I was trying to get to a class. Craig had to get to his class, and all I wanted him to do was point me in the right direction. Instead, he turned around and started to walk away. I kind of grabbed his shoulder to stop him and try to ask him again. Instead of being a good boyfriend and helping me, he grabbed my hand and started bending my thumb back. Trying to break it. He was screaming in my face (in front of hundreds, possibly thousands of people heading to class.) I had finally had enough and kicked him hard in the leg. He stormed off screaming about how I was a cunt and how I should enjoy my life alone, etc. I ran into my ex of all people on the quad after the incident, and he was furious. We went to Craig's class and pulled him out. I told him that I would call the police if he ever did anything like that again. In retrospect, I should have done it to begin with. I was stupid and in love, and thought that I could never find anyone better.
There was another incident where we were in downtown Normal. He had been in a bad mood all day. Craig is a volatile person by nature, so I was trying to be careful of the things I said and did. Finally, as Craig is known to do, he snapped. He got right in my face and started screaming. He threatened to leave me on the sidewalk and just started walking off. (I wasn't very oriented with the area, and I didn't know who I could ask for help to get back to the dorms. He came back, and we started talking again. He said that it must have been the demons who possessed him that made him do that. He said he blacked out and didn't remember anything. I am very paranormally aware, so I believed him. Now, I realize he was just making an excuse for his abusive behavior.
He cheated on me with Ryan, a guy in Ottawa. He told me he was attracted to Michelle while we were dating. He set up a personals account online and then blamed his ex friend from the army Matt for setting up the account.
Oh yeah. Did I mention that he raped me? Yeah. I bet you guys weren't expecting that one. But yes, it happened. It wasn't the holding you down and forcing you to fuck kind of thing. It was the "I want anal. You promised. Here, drink some more. Just relax." And if I made him stop, he'd give me the cold shoulder for at least that night and I'd feel like I was absolutely nothing.
He called me pretty much every name in the book; exploited my blindness whenever we were in fights; and made sure that I knew (through actions) that I was second best to his friends. He wouldn't introduce me as his girlfriend or fiance (when we were engaged) to any of his friends who were girls. That should have been a sign. I always had to clarify.
There are so many isolated incidents that I'm not going to write about them all here. Those were the main points I wanted to make to you all. If you still don't want to be my LJ friend, that's fine; but I think you needed to know why I started writing more and more publically about what he did to me.
I never realized how much abuse I suffered until I met John. He actually showed me what a boyfriend was supposed to be like; and as I started confronting the things Craig did to me, I started becoming more and more afraid, hurt, scared, and confused. My life since around November or December has been marred with panic attacks, loss of confidence, and flat out fear. John is a lot bigger than me, and I've always been afraid that he'll turn on me and start behaving like Craig did. It's been hard on both of us as I've struggled out from under Craig's influence. I take anti-depressants every day, and have been prescribed Xanax. I now only take it when I do my shots on weekends. There was a time when I was taking two or three a day. I go to counseling appointments, both individual and group therapy. I feel now that if I am going to keep moving on, I need to be completely forthcoming about what Craig did both for myself and for you, my friends...And the public.
Thank you for reading, and I hope none of you ever have to experience the pain, shame, guilt, and all the other negative feelings that accompany an abusive relationship. I don't know if I'll ever fully get over what I dealt with, but maybe I can keep pushing the memories farther and farther into the past until they are nothing to me but a horrible nightmare.
Tif
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| Sunday, July 13th, 2008
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10:46 am - Death and something new...
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Mom called this morning to tell me that Grandpa passed away.
He was a cantankerous, gruff, prickly man, but loved his family.
Cancer = 1, Grandpa = 0. Be at peace, old guy.
In other news: Adam.
We have so much in common, it's just plain creepy. In a good way. He came over last night to go out with Tif, John, and I for karaoke, but Tif had a headache, so we ended up staying at my apartment, just chilling. The four of us got a little tipsy, had good conversation (completely ignored the movie). Tif and John left, so it was just Adam and I left. We talked some more, then smooched a lot. I didn't want him driving home, so I offered to let him stay. It turns out we both like to snuggle until sleep, then sleep apart. Nice to know :D He seems like such a cool person, and I hope so hard that it works out.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Friday, July 4th, 2008
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7:46 am - I really hope I'm not bipolar...
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I doubt that I am, but I'm just in such a goddamn good mood!
It's a beautiful summer, I can graduate in December, there's this... light at the end of a tunnel.
I'm dating again, and it seems to be going well so far.
We're getting a house as soon as money issues are worked out, which they will be.
Plus other things.
It's just all going so well...
Must work now, seeya!
current mood: excited
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| Thursday, July 3rd, 2008
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1:52 pm - Short update:
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I'm still alive!
Had an appointment with the counselor this morning, who told me that I only needed 6 credit hours and to apply for graduation. I'm fucking done in December!! Every time I think about it, I get all overwhelmed with happiness and fear and start to cry a little. I bawled on the phone with my mom this morning. Then again, I'm pretty sure she cried a little too.
The house hunt seems to have come to a standstill. We've found one we LOVE, but can't put the deposit down quite yet, and are waiting for the credit and background criminal checks to come through okay.
EEE!!!!!! I need to celebrate!!!!
Tomorrow. Tomorrow I shall celebrate.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Laters!
current mood: ecstatic
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| Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
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8:57 pm - Stuff and things...
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Athena and Misce are getting along rather well, which is surprising. A is actually sleeping on my PVC pants right now. Strange...
Still working a lot. I weeded yesterday and today, and will probably continue to do so all this week. No one has maintained the perimeter. Aggressive and detrimental plant lifes are taking over. One poor little azalea was hidden in a patch of ornamental grass that had reseeded itself! Anywho. I'm in the mood for sushi. And movie popcorn. But not on the same night. Would anyone be up for getting sushi or seeing a movie with me sometime in the near future?
I think I'm gonna sleep now. Night all!
Amy
current mood:  bored
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| Thursday, June 19th, 2008
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9:26 pm - Kitties, boots and things...
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9:02 am - Last night, in a nutshell...
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Group sex would be fun
if not for one small problem:
People have elbows.
Actually, the elbows weren't that big of a problem. It was about 40% fun and 60% awkward, but I'd assume that if the event were repeated, I'd get a lot more comfortable, making it a higher, more desirable Fun:Awkward ratio.
Names shall not be named, so don't ask.
There are still a lot of blankets on my floor :D
A
current mood: chipper
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| Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
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2:26 pm - KARI KARI KARI KARI KARI KARI!!!!!
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I need my vacuum back!!!
Stat!
Please?
:D
Amy
current mood: hyper
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2008
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5:18 pm - So yeah, sterilization? Perhaps. It's been an interesting day.
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Poll #1161632 Should I never have kids?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 6Serious input only: What do you think of me getting permanently sterilized?
current mood: contemplative
current music: You Had Time ~ Ani DiFranco
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